"Release to the sky, look him straight in the eye
And tell him that now, that you wish he would die
You’ll never touch him again so get what you can
Leaving him empty just because he’s a man
So good when it ends, they’ll never be friends
One more night, that’s all they can spend.”-Stars
Adapting to this new environment that some may like to call New York City is finally getting easier. I think what I really needed was to go to a show and get the whole vibe and energy that a show can bring.
Last night I saw the Swellers and Fireworks play at the studio at Webster Hall. Honestly, those two bands know how to entertain a crowd and give them a show. I’ve seen both bands tour with other bands such as Four Year Strong and Paramore and to be part of the lineups on tours so big, its cool to see them to play a small venue, just them. The Swellers and Fireworks are part of my list of favorite bands and to see them play last night was sick. I really needed that vibe from the city. The music vibe. After going last night, I feel that everything is going to be okay and I’ll learn to deal. Yeah, my home, NJ is right around the corner, but living in the city is COMPLETELY different. Awesome, but different.
As for now, I think I’m gonna need to go to more shows; the more shows, the easier the living deal is for me here.
“No matter what, you’re going to mess up sometimes. It’s a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you’re going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends- they’ll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything- they’re your true best friends. Don’t let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they’ll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them- actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can’t give up because if you give up, you’ll never find your soul mate. You’ll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn’t mean you’re going to fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don’t, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life’s a beautiful thing and there’s so much to smile about.”
I feel so old. Tomorrow I leave for college and I have such mix feelings about it. Part of me feels sick and the other part is somewhat excited. I’m going to miss my home town so much even though I would have never expected too. Before, during my senior year, I was so ready to get out of this town, but now I don’t want to leave. It may be due to me being nervous and all, but being in a place that you have lived all your life, its expected to have separation anxiety even if its not because of a person. For a last day though, I have no complaints; it was a solid day. I just hope that this town won’t really change while I’m away.